In the name of heavens and earth
GOD

What am I doing?

Part 1

It is a long time that I have kept myself away from public. In this time that I was away, it has happen allot. The most important, was unexpected death of John Paul the II.

John Paul the II
Many may expected of me to give my official sorrow, to dear Catholics and the world but, as well, there should have a been a real reason that I first,  became passive in politic and then even left the public, or was it just because of my luxuriate, because I am just a spoiled boy. 

(Many of these true satanic enemies or worms try to show me as the spoiled boy whom his position as GOD Prophet has spoiled him as much that he has no respect left for anyone. If he has became passive in politic or if he has left the public is only because he is spoiled, do not attention to him, he is just a spoiled boy whom should get cooled down by time. Such satanic worms by such accusations are only to blind and deaf people to reality of my life which is nothing but 24 hours a day daily torture without even one break, in last 25 years. Such satanic worms need me as their under command animal of their circus, and by such accusation in front of my eye are trying to fool me to continue being their stupid circus animal, to be able to keep my dummy face, up in public through their circus. But, I neither give a shit about such satanic worms nor about my dummy face at their self chosen blind or deaf wormed public.) Back to subject, I can even say that, surly, there has been something real wrong around me, that I did not ask GOD, His forgiveness or Mercy and not killing 300.000 people by Asian Tsunami, even if, I claim, that, I did not ask GOD the massacre myself. I well remember sign of Asian Tsunami strike and its being abnormally heavy and number of death being a sadly very large number, but I clearly remember that I thanked GOD for such heavy strike, and I have clearly said that not only large number of death is all right, but also I am asking for as much destruction and death as possible because, there is no other way left than kill the worms. Don't you think there is something wrong that I have no mercy or forgiveness left over anyone. How come you worms have left no mercy over yourself at your spoiled boy! (My use of word worms is not disrespecting deaths of Asian Tsunami but, these whom torture me and forced me to ask for GOD revenge.)

Both dear late Pope and Catholics feelings are important for me but In such situations, when I am making Asian Tsunamis, I used to leave social formality away. In last 10 years, I have lost many of my dearest, like my mother or my grand parents. When my mother died, I did not even took to Iran to keep any formality, I was no other to Pope than I was to my own mother. I mention this because, I have heard in TV that someone has made something a reason and said if he is able to do so, he is well able to sit down 5 minute and write a official sorrow. No dear, I don't know myself beside any social formal or informal obligation toward anyone, as long as I am under torture, and I want, the world, to be aware of it. I am the one whom GOD has made The Life in this planet, dependent on him. Those whom reject me by their reject, reject their own life and existence. Leaving me under torture is even worst than rejecting me.

Back to subject, I use this opportunity and I give my deepest sorrow to all Catholics and the world for death of dear John Paul the II. Several times he has tried to relive me from the pressure by his words against my enemies. I am thankful to him for his effort in helping me. After I gave up Mecca and Moslems, I took to Italy to visit Pope but, my Iranian enemies irritations in Rome, forced me to cut my trip, and leave Rome. In Rome, I did not got able to make a real contact with Vatican priests. All I did in this trip, was just leaving a Religious Asylum Apply at Vatican. However later, I find out that on that Sunday Pope has spoken about Rapists, maybe because I was a Rapist and I was there. I don't know, that what I say is it true or not, I don't know was it accidentally or was it targeted ceremony for rapists because of my possible presence in ceremony, what I know is, that what ever it was, it was unpleasant to me and it made me lose all my hope on Vatican. Despite that, I liked dear John Paul even after that. He was a old religious man and old religious men has very pretty bright purity in their face which make them very pleasant to look at. I liked to see him running his ceremonies. Before I took to Rome I have asked GOD to keep him alive until I can take to Rome and visit him. I could not see him Rome so I have asked GOD to keep him alive as long as he himself wish to live. Losing Him was our lost but, I am happy for his own sake, because death has freed him from troubles of serving in his condition. His condition was not to carry his love to serve GOD and he was not able to give up serving only because of his condition. In fact GOD by death has simplified ending of his mission for him.

I have write over told but, I feel that I have lost honesty in my words. As I said, I liked dear late Pope but, I had lot more expectation of him. If I want to be honest, I must say that I had expected of him to call me to himself. I had expected that, he wish to test me. Am I really inherited of Abraham the Prophet and am beside Prophetic power or am I a liar. If the Sun come out with me or I bring rain, I had expected him to want to see that by his own eyes. I do not see my self as a treat to any religious throne and in fact I like Catholic Church and I know it as a well run organisation. I know success of GOD's Religions as success of GOD Prophet. I do not aloud my truth make any harm to Catholic Church or its leadership, so why should I get ignored. I am shutting for asylum from these whom has me under their 24 hours daily torture in last 25 years, therefore even as a normal man I had right to get help and freed from these, why Christian Pope whom is beside such high authority should have closed his ears to my shut for help, since when helping GOD Prophets has become against GOD's Religions. What was reason of ignoring me. Was it because my enemies has got me known as rapist or such. Which Prophet was clean from such accusations, didn't they cross the dear Jesses for such. I do not expect of Pope or any other top religious leader to aloud himself to close his ears to a Prophet because of enemy's accusations. If I was helped and freed from these whom torture me two years ago over 300.000 people may were alive today. If GOD's Religions our not to help GOD's Prophets why we Prophets should bring any religion at all. Why we Prophets must bring anything that has no use for ourselves anyway. How a man whom cannot clear his own benefit and bring something that has no use for himself or his next can guide anyone to GOD or freedom. I have not seen in Bible that we have been send to make others rich kingdoms, get people by power of GOD in their obey and then we scape from their power and harm ourselves, or even if they are good, we should not expect any help from them even when we are in deep trouble. If 25 years torture or over 300.000 death in revenge is not sign of my deep trouble, tell me what can be deep trouble?

I had to include over told but over told must not get abused against dear John Paul the II or any other religion or religious leader. I have only include over told to not have written just an empty formal text instead of honest words. I finish by my thanks to John Paul the II for his service and effort to Catholics, world and myself and I ask GOD to help Catholics to overcome his lost.

I publish this part and I continue rest of the subject in other parts. My brain is tired, and it is difficult to write a long text under constant mobbing, maybe writing it small parts make it easier and force me to write it. 

Ta Seyed Mohammad Ali Mearaji 
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29 June 2005 

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